Just Breathe

Today, I have a scooter and I've gone a solo journey to a beach on the north side of the island. It has a sandbar going out to a little island which I will traverse just after I write this blog. There, I will snorkel, sunbathe, read my homework in preparation for tomorrow's test, then drive my moped back to Pyramid for the 6:00 drum workshop, followed by singing at 7:30 in the sound dome. I just gave Marina a recording of all of the songs I learned from Rusty Wells and Janet Stone in San Francisco. I'm hopeful that she'll incorporate it into our Sunday night Kirtans. I sing the songs daily on my own, but they're so fun that I'd love to share them with everybody. In fact, I just led a call and response at a campfire the other night and it was incredible. That is another dream come true - singing around a campfire and having people sing back - and like my voice! Beautiful! I bombed my first exam. 64%. I was shocked. How could I score so low - it's just yoga? Then I realized that I had been skeptical of everything we were learning, didn't read the chapter and generally expected that I'd sail through it. In fact, there are deep levels of knowledge from physiological, psychological, energetic, historical and anatomical levels that I truly need to delve into to grasp the science of yoga they are teaching. This is hatha yoga - many aspects of it - there is much to learn. I'm no longer reading and writing every day - I have to get over my resistance to reading. I realized that I stopped reading anything serious a long time ago as I just plain read too much at work. I love people - I missed human interaction. Here, however, what I have to read is all about yoga, my own journey through this experiential process, and it is incredible to turn life completely inside out and upside down. Why not just dive in? No need for skepticims. The other day, I was watching a mandala morph in and out of shape to follow the vibrational currencies of energies and I laughed out loud b/c this is work! Ha! We are learning how to tap into the energy of sound, voice, visuals, movement, breathing, affirmations, dance, asanas - and it's soo new. I am coloring and dancing and singing and meditating. There are sweet places of peace that I've dropped into if only for a moment that are a silent stillness that I've never known. This is recovery for thinking too much - I'm in rehab! How to be a hippy? No. How to be a yogi tuning in with the frequencies of the electromagnetic frequencies of the universe and just let my hair down while learning all of the incredible benefits of yoga for health, creativity and imagination? Absolutely!