Eve of Departure

It is now 30 minutes past midnight. The rain is silver striped around the moon's ring and it's cold. Rusty Wells taught a beautiful class tonight about transition and courage and appreciation and nonjudgment. He is a masterful teacher who I feel very, very fortunate to have studied with this past year. He is right: choose courage, not fear. Even in a rainstorm, I am warmed by the simple wisdom of yoga.
I leave tomorrow 1/23 on a 4:00 flight. A numerologist would have a field day: I'm leaving on 1.23.4. Also, this adds to 10 which makes 1 a/k/a a new beginning. Same with 2008, this adds to 10 which makes 1 a/k/a a new beginning. The moon begins to wane tomorrow: another new beginning.
Almost all ts are dotted and is are crossed. This month has been virtually nonstop with preparations and the details involved with leaving for a year and deciding not to rent a storage space - but instead to loan, sell and give all of my stuff to friends to use until I return (unless they were purchased). The idea is to have a party upon my arrival where friends will return into my life with their hearts and my stuff. We'll see.
It hasn't quite hit me that tomorrow is the day to go, yet. I've felt waves of emotion from fear to awe to excitement to joy to feeling utterly blessed and like the luckiest woman in the world. I have shared in the love and wisdom of my friends and family as we have said our goodbyes. I've even shared in the love and wisdom of nature: in the past few days, I've soaked in hot tubs on a cliff of the pacific in the pouring cold rain while grey whales and dolphins float past. I've seen monarchs migrating, meditated near a river and a waterfall in a warm little cabin, driven under three rainbows in the past three days and saw snow!!! on top of Hwy 17. I've relished the brightenss of Venus next to the nearly full moon and communed with O'rien shining brightly up ahead. A pigeon nearly ran into me on the cliffs of Big Sur - that's the first time I've ever seen a pigeon in Big Sur -- do they live there or was this a sign? Who knows? I've released my love in backbends and sidebends and kisses and hugs. My eyes have overflowed with tears due to how very touched I am to know so much beauty, so much beauty in all of these people and these beautiful parts of California. I have laughed until my belly ached and felt so held and loved and respected by my community. I am full and rich and healthy and grateful. I don't know what is in store, but a beatiful wise friend of mine has shared much of Rumi with me and I know that I am not the first to follow in this path. I know that it is nothing less than right. Wow.
So with that, I bid you adieu. It's time for bed. Only two more phone calls to make, a final pack of my luggage (on wheels - confessions of a high maintenance traveller, indeed), one last cash deposit to the bank (woohoo, thank you simon for buying my car!), one last item to buy (a camera) and a load of mail to drop (taxes done with a refund to boot - allright!). I'll keep my cellphone and work the sim card when I get there so please feel free to text me. I'll also look into skype upon my arrival.
I am lucky to have a friend who has lived in Thailand for years. I'll head straight to his in Bangkok and enjoy a couple of days immersing myself in Thailand and catching up with the DJ artist turned English instructor. Isn't life incredible? Thereafter, a retreat of fasting and cleansing before I head to Mountain Hut bungalows on 2/2 to begin my course at Pyramid Yoga Center on 2/3.
All is ready - if something isn't, I'll deal with it like another wave of isms to be addressed. What a relief to have swam through all these years of work and school and schedules only to come out at this moment with a new world awaiting me on the other end of the Pacific. I think it's funny that I will delve deeper into my heart and soul - things that are with me wherever I go - but in the East, I will have the time, space and resources to truly discipline my mind to quiet itself, to go within, to give without, to love, to bond, to unify, to just BE!
Thank you to the One, to God, to the Universe, to Yoga, to freedom, to courage and to LOVE.
Goodnight and happy new beginnings to one and all.
Love,
Kyra